I have not changed or added any relevant content for some time. I had to make some choices and chain my education, which made me unhappy. Because I have worked hard to have as much peace in my life after everything I have been through, I had to drop my intended major so others would be happy. I can still do law school, but it will be put last. I just went back to the health science major I originally began with. I have been trying to care for so much on my own for about 25 years. I assumed responsibility when others just decided they would not help. So, eventually, I will get to have a life. It’s usually the daughter that takes care of things and takes on the stress and responsibility of caring for sick family members.

I know this is not a new article yet, but I am taking two extra classes and have almost finished one of the classes in a week. Plus, I am working on my Anthropology class work. Exhausted doesn’t even begin to describe what I am feeling right now. I am trying to finish my bachelor’s degree as quickly as possible, and it’s a lot of work. Plus, I am trying to help my parents with things as best as possible. But I am just one person, and it is challenging to care for anyone with stage 4 cancer. Especially when you have another parent who is disabled. I don’t have help from anyone else, either. I should, but I don’t know if you understand what I am saying. But sometimes it doesn’t work the way you need it to. Sometimes, others’ perceptions of reality differ from what they were and were long ago. I have no hate towards anyone. I’m too tired for that type of thing. I just let go of everything and walked away from a lot. I have given others a second chance because they were such a massive part of my life that I felt a hole in my heart without them around.

I think once my mom’s cancer spread I started to look at things and life a lot differently. I became a little bit more forgiving about some things but I became more depressed too. I realized that I had to rescue her because Dad couldn’t do it like before and nobody was lining up for the job. My mom has tried to help others out but the favor wasn’t returned. I became more protective of her. I became that way over someone else, too. But I tried to say something to protect them, and I was in the wrong. I was shunned, and I was always there for them. I decided to no longer protect them and walk away. I have been in a romantic relationship where I built him back up, and he repaid me by cheating and being abusive. I am in a relationship now that isn’t ideal. I hope for some changes because I can’t stay in a long-distance relationship much longer…

I have two terms left,, and I will have my bachelor’s degree in Public Health. I never thought I would be able to do this. The classes are challenging, and I have refused to give up, though I have been encouraged to do so. But I am far from done with school. My next step is to get my Juris Doctor, which takes 3 years. I go full-time, and I have to pass the bar. Yikes!! However, a public health degree is hard, so I think I can do it, too. I want to help women and domestic violence and other things. I want to be able to do something good in this world. I would love to open a nonprofit one day for women who need a safe place to go when they are in danger from a spouse or partner. Keeping them safe and helping them get out of alone would be great. Soon the next chapter is going to begin in my life…